I've chosen the top 3 bad habits to focus on right now based on how attacking one bad habit can often fix other issues with minimal effort. My top 3 are:
1. Lack of exercise - When I exercise, I get more energy for the day, I last longer and am much less
cranky. I also pay better attention to what I eat. Frankly, the main reason I become unproductive is
because I'm exhausted and I run out of energy.
2. Procrastination - It's easy to make excuses when you're exhausted, but procrastination is only
prolonging the inevitable for me. If there's a menial task to be done, more than likely it's my
responsibility so I'm only hurting myself by piling up loads of boring things if I don't just get
over with quickly.
3. Not giving myself the luxury of time - God is the author of my life, and the author of my time,
so I don't know why I feel like I have to learn everything immediately. Maybe it's related to the
piles undone things that taunt me, like my piles of photos saying, "Really? You can't even send these
pictures to your poor sick grandmother?" Which is probably because my son can never find his socks
and shoes and my husband always wants to wear the shirt I haven't gotten around to washing.
An interesting thing I learned simply by being mindful over the last few days, is that these bad habits are caused by underlying issues. God really hit me over the head with the fact that I have an underlying fear of wasting time. Both my brother and I have this unexplained concern. We both believed we wouldn't live past 30. We have no idea where these thought patterns come from, but had I not taken the time to identify my bad habits, I wouldn't have realized the effect it's having on me.
Every time I tried to get something done, a little voice in my head would say something like, "You don't have time for that." or "That's a waste of time." I realize I've been letting that voice influence the choices I make throughout the day.
That's how the enemy works. He puts a phrase, negative comment, or totally irrational thought into your head and tries to get you to own it. Only when I slowed, and quieted down to listen, did I realize the effect it's been having on me.
I have placed a "Non-Negotiable" boundary around myself regarding giving these items attention. Honestly, trying it already for only a day, has made me more focused than I have been in months. Here's my commitment to myself -
Exercise: Cardio for one hour 4 days a week and strength training with my trainer 2 days a week.
Procrastination: It doesn't exist in my world anymore. Nothing gets delayed. My husband has this philosophy and I used to just think he was a super freak, but his success has proven me wrong time and time again.
Time: No fear. I will plan my day accordingly and build in the hours I need in order to learn and do the things I need to learn and do and I will stop listening to "the voice."
I'm pumped! I worked out with my trainer for an hour yesterday, thinking I was going to die of a heart attack the whole time, but I pushed through...to the point of nausea. I almost puked and thought about taking a picture to show you what I looked like but then you may never come back to read. Instead, I'll leave you with a picture of my pretty pink gloves!
While I was punching and kicking my way to pukeville, I kept saying, "This is for you Jesus!" I sincerely, felt His pleasure.
Oliver Wendall Holmes said, "We all need an education in the obvious." The Bible tells us to examine ourselves closely. I urge you to take a look at your own bad habits and create a plan of attack!